Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Not Knowing What Comes Next

I'll admit, I am a little bit obsessive with planning.  Which is why, at this phase in my life, not knowing what is going to come next makes me anxious. 

But there are certain things I know to be true, so I hold on to those and try and let everything else go.

  1. I have people who love and care about me
  2. I will get better
  3. I am working on myself
  4. I am focused on my career
  5. My health has become a priority for me
  6. I have time.  Time away to heal and think and plan for the future
  7. I have AMAZING children who love and cherish me almost as much as I love and cherish them
  8. I am going to focus on being positive
  9. I am going to let the hurt seep away until it becomes a distant memory and not an every day reminder of betrayal
  10. I am going to try to write something every day because I know it helps me even if it is drivel and nonsense most of the time
  11. I will not give in to the demons that are eating away at me
  12. I will reach out to people when I need help
  13. Thirteen is a nice number to end on and I don't have anything else to say

Thank you to everyone who has reached out to me and been so supportive.  Most of you don't even realize the horrors of the last month, but your words of encouragement and love have helped more than you can ever know.



Avitable said...

That's a good list.

Anonymous said...

The kids and career are great distractions and really help us take our minds off ourselves. You're on the right track. Stay strong but not hard hearted. Stay soft but not gullible. m

sybil law said...

Always support. xo